"The things that I love right now, are the things that I learned to love from you." A short poetic story I wrote eight years ago about the things that I learned to love from someone I love.
THE THINGS THAT I LOVE
I really love the
colour blue. The soft colour of blue like the sky in the middle of the day.
It’s like it’s painted neatly there in the sky, mixed up with a whole different
hues of blue. Yet, it’s still as bright as ever, the vast and endless, never-ending
sky. Other than that, I also loved fireworks. The moment they explode in the
night sky for a few seconds and then scatters so far apart, illuminating the
sky once and disappearing in the next. Every time I see it, it takes my breath
away. It was just for a moment, but it stayed in my memory forever.
I really, really
love the stars. It’s there even though you can never see it, taking care of you
from far away. Rather than traditional, I really wanted to try digital drawing.
I never use a correction tape anymore even though I used to back in Form One,
since I found out that it wasted time and money. Crossing my mistakes would’ve
been the better choice. If I did a mistake, I could’ve asked for another paper.
In this whole world, I only own a single brother, which I hated a lot. But, I
found out that you will miss them very much when they are gone, and by then you
will realize they had always been with you. So, I started appreciating his
existence in my life, and I found out it he wasn’t so bad after we mend our
misunderstandings.
I am what you call
a rebel teenager. I argued with my parents a lot. But I found out how much responsibility
they took just to take care of me, and how big my responsibility is to take
care of them in return when they get older. I really love my parents. I loved
the stage as well. I want my feelings and my words reach everyone so they’re
conveyed properly and so that I would be able to be who I am. I liked entering
competitions because I loved winning. I love the satisfaction of winning
something, and hated losing. But, soon after, I learned that even losing is not
a bad thing as long as you have fun doing it.
In fact, above
everything else, I used to hate myself. But I came to love as who I am, because
I understood that even a person like me can be loved by someone.
Look, I’m coloured
in your colour. I loved fireworks so much, I ran just to catch a glimpse of
them, wondering how I felt when I looked at it back then. I can’t help but to
stare at the sky, every single time when it turns to your favorite hue. I can
never bring myself to buy a correction tape again nor can I stop stargazing in
the night.
Like a firework
that burst in the sky, and stopped for moment. For a long, long time, without
scattering at all. Ah, is that the condition of my heart right now? Right now
I’m still running after that firework, so I can see it disappear in front of my
eyes so my heart will feel at ease. Tears, please don’t ever fall again.
The things that I love right now, are the
things that I learned to love from you.
-YUKINA-
27.7.2014 (554 words)
